Friday, August 29, 2008

Picture of the Day--It Should've been just Spock and Bones

Here are Spock and Bones in the TOS episode All Our Yesterdays. The episode has everything a Spock-McCoy fan can ask for: the two guys are stranded on an alien planet, seeking shelter together against the bitter cold...


But it doesn't stay just the two of them. Sigh. No, a woman named Zarabeth shows up. And while I'm grateful to her for rescuing the guys, I can't help thinking that she spoils the fun. But that's what fan fic is for--this episode gets quite interesting in the What-Happened-Instead genre!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Lawful Obedience, Part Twenty-Three

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Slash Fan Fiction (Star Trek, Spock-McCoy)
Rating: PG-13

LINK TO PART ONE

~

It was late, but a group had gathered around one of the tables in Rec Room 6. Kirk leaned back in his chair, enjoying the camaraderie, and glanced at the faces surrounding him.

Spock and Bones were first and foremost. They seemed content to pass their time with the group tonight, in lieu of a private date. Bones hadn't even objected when Kirk invited Spock to a game of chess earlier. Kirk appreciated that; he knew it was Bones' way of telling him that the good doctor wouldn't hog Spock.

Scotty was at the table as well, with Rand on one side of him and Sulu on the other. He was, at present, pontificating on the properties of good whiskey—but while those at the table made for an indulgent audience, it was likely that only Dr. McCoy appreciated Scotty's connoisseurship.

Lee sat on Sulu's right hand side and Uhura sat beside him. The two hadn't come together—Lee and Uhura, that is—but somehow they had gravitated toward each other. Kirk felt a knot in his gut as he realized that the sight of them sitting side by side was likely to become a common one.

Lee. Kirk still had difficulty crediting the fact that he was staring at Bobby Lee. Or Robby, as Mr. Scott insisted on calling him. Lee, apparently, was too much the gentleman to object that he had always been known as Bobby or Robert.

He was much like Kirk had imagined him. Well, not quite. Kirk couldn't help but picture Bobby Lee as he was during the Civil War: an older man, with that thick black hair of his long since turned white…but with the same dark, intelligent eyes.

And the same personality: that peculiar combination of charm and shyness. This was not a man who would put himself forward. And yet you couldn't ignore him. Perhaps that was because there was a tense excitement about him, for all that he was so quiet. He was, after all, a man who loved war, even with all the blood and mud and rot and disease.

In a strange sort of way, Lee had given Kirk his first taste of battle. When Kirk was about ten or eleven, he'd stumbled on an old hardcover book called The Killer Angels. It was a real book with yellowed pages that were crumbling on the edges.

He opened it up and started reading…and suddenly he was on the fields of Gettysburg. He could smell the smoke of the guns and cannons; he could see the rotting corpses of soldiers and horses baking in the sun.

And the men: Lee and Longstreet on the Rebel side; Buford and Chamberlain for the Federals—they all sprang to life in front of him.

Kirk was entranced. He'd sat down and read the damn thing from cover to cover. That book gave him his first whiff of war—and the knowledge that there were causes worth fighting and dying for.

Kirk narrowed his eyes at Lee. There was no harm, since Scotty was claiming Lee's attention at the moment. He thought about Gettysburg and how lucky the Federals were that Jackson was already dead.

How in hell had this shy man worked so well with Stonewall Jackson? What a strange pair they must have made. Lee was the perfect gentlemen and a quiet man of faith. But Jackson—Jackson was like some avenging angel: hard, bloody-minded and a religious fanatic.

But they were unbeatable together. If Lee'd had Jackson at Gettysburg…

But, no, that wasn't fair. There was no way to tell what might have been. And yet Kirk couldn't help but think that with Jackson at his side, Lee would have won Gettysburg on the first or second day. Jackson would have understood what Lee meant when he said, "Take that hill if practicable." Unlike Ewell, Jackson would have taken the damn hill.

With Jackson there Lee wouldn't have had to order Pickett's charge. Kirk frowned. What a foolhardy, stupid order that had been…and what a colossal waste of life. It was hard to imagine a brilliant general like Lee making such a mistake. That charge decimated the Army of Northern Virginia.

Lee was a daredevil—that was the problem. You wouldn't know it to look at him, but it was the truth. But Kirk couldn't fault him for that, could he? People in glass houses…

And, in fairness, if any army on earth could have succeeded with that charge, it was those Rebs. Even Kirk could admit that, however little sympathy he had for the Southern cause.

Scotty's brogue called Kirk back to the present. "What are you saying, Robby?" he was asking Lee in an outraged voice. "You don't like whiskey?"

"On the contrary, Mr. Scott, I like it very much," Lee assured him. "That's why I never touch it."

Scotty grinned appreciatively at that and then shook his head. "Your loss, lad."

"Robert, do you feel that way about wine too?" Uhura asked, placing a hand on his forearm.

Kirk didn't pay attention to Lee's soft answer, but he frowned at the fact that the general was comfortable with Uhura using his first name and resting her hand on him. Surely a Southern gentleman of the old school should object to such intimacy so soon? But Lee, Kirk noted sourly, didn't look like he objected.

Kirk turned toward Spock and Bones, seeking a distraction. Bones met his eyes with a wry look of sympathy—he had read his captain's thoughts. Kirk just shrugged his shoulders in response.

Spock, meanwhile, was staring at Yeoman Rand. And she, in turn, was frowning over the schedules she had in hand.

"Are you still struggling to make a minyan, Yeoman?" the Vulcan asked.

She glanced up at him and smiled. "Yes," she answered. "Just for the early part of the services, from 9-10:30."

"Well, it wouldn't be so hard if you weren't trying to schedule people for the party too," Sulu pointed out.

"True," she owned. "But I'll figure out some way to make this work. I only need one more person now."

Kirk smiled at her. "I'll approve just about any scheme you come up with," he reminded her.

"Thank you sir—I know that," she said, with a warm look of gratitude in her eyes.

"Who counts toward a minyan, Rand?" Bones asked suddenly. "You just have to be Jewish?"

She nodded. "Jewish and at least bar mitzvah age."

"What if you haven't had a bar mitzvah?" he pressed.

"That doesn't matter," she said. "It's the age that counts—you have to be an 'adult.'"

"What's up, Bones?" Kirk interrupted, grinning. "You know a closet Jew?"

Bones grinned back. "Can't a fellow just be inquisitive?"

"Hey, are you going to find religion, Doctor?" Sulu cut in.

"Nah," Bones said, shaking his head. "I got too dizzy trying to keep up with your faith du jour."

The whole table laughed at that. Sulu tended to change religious hats with alarming frequency. Kirk had never decided if he was a broad minded individual—or if he just had a short attention span when it came to eternal questions.

At length Kirk's eyes returned to Bones. What was behind the good doctor's question? And why had Spock raised the issue of the minyan to begin with? It wasn't like the first officer to ask a question out of mere politeness.

But the captain wouldn't find his answers tonight; the conversation had already turned. So he pushed his curiosity aside and joined in the discussion about the latest rumors from headquarters.

~

Bones risked a sidelong glance at Spock. They were walking together in the general direction of the Vulcan's quarters, but Spock hadn't said a word for the past ten minutes.

"What's wrong, Spock?" Bones asked.

"You had no reason to ask Yeoman Rand who qualifies as part of a minyan," he said.

The doctor grinned. "Spock, if I didn't know better, I'd say you're a bit cross. But you'd never lower yourself to such a human emotion now, would you?"

Spock glared at him. "I am not cross, Doctor. I am merely questioning your curiosity in a matter that cannot possibly concern you."

"I thought you approved of curiosity?" Bones retorted.

The Vulcan took a deep breath at that, but apparently he did not quite trust himself to answer.

Bones grinned to himself. It was almost too easy to get Spock riled up sometimes.

"Don't worry, Spock," he said "I won't out you."

Spock stopped walking and turned to face the doctor with a look of utter incomprehension. "Out me?" he demanded.

Bones had to bite his lip to keep from laughing. This time Spock wasn't faking it—he really had no idea what Bones was talking about.

He shook his head at the Vulcan—at this man he knew he would love for all of his life. "I won't tell anyone that you're technically Jewish," he promised. "God forbid you should identify with any part of your human heritage. But, as I said before, that's your business. Now come on; we're almost to your quarters."

Spock turned front again and resumed walking. "Do you—do you mean to return to your cabin tonight?" he asked at length.

"It's kind of far off," Bones pointed out. "And yours is coming right up…would it be a problem if I spent the night again?"

"It would be…pleasant…to have your company throughout the night," Spock managed. "But in light of our agreement to refrain from…intimacy…you might prove—" he stopped abruptly.

"Too tempting?" Bones asked with what he knew was a hopeful glint in his eyes.

"Precisely Doctor," Spock confirmed.

McCoy thought that over. "But it felt natural to sleep next to each other, didn't it? I'd hate to end our date with a chaste kiss at your door after that. Besides, we're not a pair teenagers with raging hormones. I think we can control our sex drives."

They were at Spock's door now. Spock paused and looked at Bones as it slid open. Unless McCoy was imagining things, he seemed to swallow hard before responding.

"Very well, Doctor," he said at length. "You may stay the night. But…there are differences between a human's 'sex drive' and a Vulcan's. Perhaps we should now discuss them."

And with that, Spock nodded him inside. Bones hesitated for a moment, wondering what could be so different about the sexual habits of Vulcans. But he'd find out soon enough, he supposed.

He was smiling to himself again as he finally stepped inside. This was likely to prove a fascinating conversation.

LINK TO PART TWENTY-FOUR

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Pics of the Day~Spock & Bones adopt a kid and live happily ever after...

(A.K.A: My take on the Star Trek TOS episode Friday's Child.)

Yeah, I've got a bunch of pictures today. Why? Because I've finally got the hang of screen shots!

The first pic is, naturally, of Spock and Bones:

This next one is of a contrite Kirk--he's apologizing to Bones for chewing him out without cause:

And here's Bones with Eleen (who's played by Julie Newmar--yup, Catwoman.) She's not thrilled to be pregnant, but she's starting to like the doctor's tender care:


Spock, however, doesn't appreciate just how close the good doctor is getting to Eleen. (No, really. I'm not making this up.) It seems he wants McCoy all to himself, because he's looking mighty jealous:

Hey, what do you know? McCoy's embarrassed that Spock saw him holding Eleen's hand:

Ok, now Spock and Bones are over their little tiff and cooperating once more:

And here's McCoy's famous line: "I'm a doctor, not an escalator!" You tell 'em, Bones:

Can you stand this? Julie Newmar looks fabulous even when her character's in childbed:

McCoy helps Eleen give birth to a healthy child. But she's still not keen on the whole 'Mommy' business, so she gives the child to McCoy and Spock to adopt:

Spock and McCoy get married and live happily ever after as they raise their new son. They name the kid 'James' after their best friend. Kirk is honored and as happy as a clam. With McCoy's help, he patiently teaches Spock to say "Oochy-woochy-coochy-coo," to the baby.

Ok...jeez. The episode didn't quite end that way. But it should have!

But Spock really did repeat the words "Oochy-woochy-coochy-coo," after he heard Bones saying them to the kid. Ok, Spock didn't quite say them to the baby...he questioned Kirk instead, who (with an admirably straight face) referred him to linguistics.

Oh, and Eleen named the kid Leonard James, after Bones & Kirk--much to Spock's chagrin...

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Clip of the Day~Heartfelt devotion to Lee...

If you've been reading Lawful Obedience--or if you're keen on history and good movies--this may be of interest. It does require some background, though.

Here's the story as I've heard it: as they were filming the movie Gettysburg, a huge group of Confederate reenactors saw Martin Sheen--who was portraying Lee--ride their way. They rushed toward him, shouting Lee's name, surrounding Sheen, touching him, shaking his hand...

Sheen was shocked--he said afterwards that these guys didn't seem to realize that he wasn't Lee, lol. You can see an almost frightened look on his face as he nonetheless steadies his horse and does his best to shake hands with as many of the men as he can.

The short scene was unplanned, but fortunately someone had enough sense to keep the cameras rolling. It conveys something of the devotion that Lee inspired--regardless of whether the South was right to secede ;)


Friday, August 22, 2008

Picture of the Day~DeForest Kelley

Love it! But I wish I could remember where I snagged it from...

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Picture of the Day~Lovely Spock-McCoy Moment

I love this scene of The Immunity Syndrome--Spock asks McCoy to wish him luck before undertaking a likely suicidal mission. (Ok, there's a bit more to it than that...but that's the gist of it.) There's a good review of the remastered episode here.)

Lawful Obedience, Part Twenty-Two

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Slash Fan Fiction (Star Trek, Spock-McCoy)
Rating: PG-13

LINK TO PART ONE

~

Lee forced himself to concentrate on his studies for the remainder of the morning—that enabled him to set aside his anger. But by the time he returned to the cabin to meet Sulu for lunch, he found that he couldn't stop his hand from shaking. Fortunately, Sulu was delayed on the bridge, giving Lee time to reign in his emotions.

He sat down on his bunk and balled his hands into fists. Until this moment, some part of him had still regarded his experiences in this time as a wild, entrancing dream—albeit with a poignant realism to it. But that dreamlike quality evaporated in the face of the very real anger that was coursing through his blood.

This was no dream.

Nor was he merely on assignment with his family waiting patiently back in Virginia. His wife and all his children were dead. The world he knew was gone.

He shut his eyes. He had never feared death. He was grateful to God for the years he had been given, but he had not looked for an unnatural lifespan. But this stranger—this woman with no face and no name—had foisted just that upon him.

There was a sickening cruelty to that—to force a man to outlive his family and everything he held dear. Nor had she stopped at that. She had toyed with his mind, not caring, apparently, if she drove him insane in the process.

Why? Of what use to anyone was he in this century? Lee didn't question his worth, but neither did he exaggerate it. Why had this stranger selected him? What did she expect from him?

He felt his fists tighten. But he was determined not to give into his anger. He would not allow anger to control him.

He wanted answers—but they would have to wait. Tomorrow, he reminded himself. Tomorrow they would reach Octavian VII. Perhaps the answers waited there.

Meanwhile, he still needed to reign in his anger—he needed to give his mind something else to contemplate. And so he went to the computer and called up Scripture and the Book of Common Prayer. It was something, he thought, to have these at the mere touch of a finger. He missed having the actual books at hand; he missed the feel of the pages and the scent of the leather covers. But there was something to be said for the ability to call up any translation or edition he pleased.

He found no magical verse to set his mind at ease—but he did find comfort in the familiar words and meditations. Grief would come soon; he knew that. Grief for his wife and his children and everything he had lost. And nothing would allay that grief. He was wise enough to realize that. He would simply have to wait for time to dull it.

But time, it seemed, was one thing he did have.

~

Spock sat down at the table in sickbay, composing his thoughts. He would not speculate further on T'Pring. He would wait to hear his mother's advice first: although she was not Vulcan, she understood the protocol of Vulcan betrothals. She might well devise a solution to Spock's dilemma that Spock himself would not have imagined.

More worrisome would be his father's reaction to a broken betrothal. Even assuming that Spock found an honorable way to part from T'Pring—would his father accept the logic that had driven him to it? Would his father ever accept Dr. McCoy as Spock's bond-mate?

It was unlikely, Spock conceded. Sarek would argue Spock's logic and object to the doctor. He would no more accept McCoy than he had accepted Spock's decision to join Starfleet.

So, once again, Spock would find himself at odds with his father. But should that signify? His father did not speak to him now. Little would change when Spock bonded with McCoy.

Yeoman Rand chose that moment to walk into sickbay, interrupting Spock's thoughts. She had a small, hopeful smile on her face and she was giving McCoy an imploring look.

The doctor grinned at her as he took a seat next to Spock. "What's up Rand?" he asked as he nodded at the chair opposite him. "Is that a schedule I see in your hand?"

"Yes," she admitted, sitting down. "Doctor, I need two of your technicians from 09:00 to 10:30 the day after tomorrow. Greene and Shapiro, I mean. I'm trying to get a minyan for my bat mitzvah. I've got one from 10:30 on, but not before."

"A minyan?" McCoy asked.

"A quorum, Doctor," Spock interjected. "A minimum of ten Jews is required for full Jewish services."

Rand smiled at him. "Exactly." Then she turned back to McCoy. "So can I borrow them, Doctor? They have off for my party, but not for the service."

"Of course," he answered. "Barring any medical disasters, they can stay for the whole service—they don't have to rush back at 10:30. I can spare them. How many people are you up to?"

"Greene and Shapiro make six—so I've got four more to go." She paused, giving both men what Spock would call an arch look. "I know you'll both be there early. I don't suppose you two would like to convert real quick? Then I'd have eight."

McCoy grinned again, but he shook his head. "Tempting, but no thanks."

Spock, however, was narrowing his eyes at Rand. "Yeoman, you must know it would be impossible for Dr. McCoy to convert so quickly—furthermore, you must know that it is inappropriate to proselytize within Starfleet."

The doctor rolled his eyes heavenward at that, as if seeking forbearance. Yeoman Rand, Spock noted, looked thoroughly nonplussed.

"I was just teasing, Mr. Spock," she assured him.

"Don't you ever recognize a joke when you hear one?" McCoy asked with an exasperated smile.

"I was merely pointing out the inconsistencies of her question, Doctor."

Rand gave him a tentative smile of her own. "I apologize for the misunderstanding, Mr. Spock," she said as she rose to her feet. "And thank you, Dr. McCoy! I really appreciate this."

With that, she took her leave. Spock watched her go and then turned back to McCoy. The doctor, he discovered, was shaking his head at him.

"What am I going to do with you, Spock?" he asked.

Spock shrugged in response. "It did not occur to me that Yeoman Rand would joke about trying to convert you."

McCoy swiveled in his chair so that he was facing Spock and narrowed his eyes at him. "Or you," he pointed out. "She was talking to both of us."

"It would not be possible for Yeoman Rand to convert me to Judaism, Doctor, because—"

"Let me guess," McCoy interrupted. "Because no human religion could possibly compete with your Vulcan logic?"

Spock considered that. "That's quite likely. However, a conversion to Judaism on my part would also be redundant."

McCoy blinked. "What do you mean?"

"As I understand the matter, I am already a Jew according to Jewish law."

The doctor stared blankly at that. "How—is your mother a Jew?"

"Strictly speaking, yes, although she does not practice the religion."

McCoy frowned. "Then—then you'd count toward Rand's minyan, wouldn't you?"

"I believe so, yes," Spock confirmed.

"Why didn't you tell her that?" the doctor demanded. "We'll be there early and you know she's counting heads."

"I do not wish to be counted."

"Why not?"

"It is not my religion, Doctor. I see no reason to identify with it."

McCoy cocked his head at him. "Is that why you've kept this a secret?"

"I have not kept this secret," Spock corrected him. "No one aboard ship has ever asked me."

McCoy seemed to think that over. At length he managed a wry grin. "That's fair, I suppose."

He fell silent at that, but Spock could see that he was still troubled. Spock didn't understand what was troubling him, however. He knew for a fact that McCoy was not, himself, religious. Why should it offend him if Spock chose not to identify with a terran religion that had no significance to him?

"Why are you troubled, Doctor?"

McCoy took his time about answering. "I'm not troubled—not exactly. I was just wondering…well, why are you hostile to so much of your earth heritage?"

Spock cocked his head at that. "I am not hostile to my earth heritage. My earth heritage simply does not affect me. I choose to identify as a Vulcan."

That answer did not seem to satisfy McCoy. Spock inhaled deeply and confronted him. "Surely, Doctor, you do not wish me to adopt Judaism as my religion? You are not yourself a Jew, nor, to the best of my knowledge, do you even practice the religion of your birth."

"That's true," McCoy acknowledged. "It's been years since I've been to church, excepting weddings and such. And you're right—since I'm not a religious man, it'd be mighty inconvenient for me if you suddenly found God. It's just that…"

He paused and shrugged. "I may not go to church—and neither did my parents much, for that matter. But that was still the religion of my grandparents and their parents and their parents. So it has some kind of value to me, even if I only admit it at Christmas time. It just seems to me that your human heritage—including Judaism and whatever other beliefs your Mom's family had—ought to matter to you."

"But they do not, Doctor," Spock insisted. "I do not deny my human heritage—but neither do I seek to embrace it. I'm afraid you will have to accept me as a Vulcan."

McCoy's blue eyes flashed at that, but to Spock's surprise the doctor did not argue. In fact, he shrugged instead.

"Well, that's your right," he said. Then he stood up and placed a hand on Spock's shoulder. "I've got some lab work to do. I'll pick you up at your cabin later on and we'll go out for dinner—say 19:00?"

Spock nodded. "That is satisfactory."

McCoy nodded and strode off, heading for the labs. Spock remained seated, puzzling over the doctor's reaction.

Spock should be pleased; McCoy had not criticized his choices. He had merely asked questions and expressed his opinion. He had not argued with Spock and he had not lost his temper. He was, perhaps, too sentimental when it came to religious backgrounds—both his own and Spock's—but on the whole the doctor had behaved quite rationally.

So why did his reaction still trouble Spock? Perhaps because McCoy had left so much unsaid—he clearly had not spoken his peace.

Spock sighed. McCoy had not given in, he realized. He would bring up Spock's human heritage again—he was just waiting for a more advantageous moment. McCoy would always harp on his human side; he would never allow Spock to forget that half of himself.

Spock almost permitted himself a thin smiled at that thought. He suspected that his mother—despite her immersion in Vulcan culture—would be quite pleased with the good doctor.

As if in response to that thought, the screen of the sickbay computer flashed. Spock had set it to alert him in case of a response from his mother. Apparently that response had arrived. Spock ordered the computer to convey it to him.

Amanda's face appeared on the screen, smiling warmly at her son as the recorded message began.

"Spock," she said, after greeting him in Vulcan, "it will not be an easy matter to break your betrothal. Please consider this carefully—T'Pring is from an honored family and your father believes she will prove an excellent match for you."

She paused. "But I suspect that you've already made up your mind. Can you to take leave on Vulcan soon? If this can be handled at all, you must be present. Please let me know when I can expect you."

She concluded the brief message in Vulcan. Spock frowned—his mother had offered no detailed plan; surely that was not a good sign. However, he would request the leave. He would speak to Kirk at the earliest opportunity.

LINK TO PART TWENTY-THREE

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

What Counts As Profound?

A few weeks ago, after the 'Sunday Minyan' gathering at my synagogue, some of the guys sat down and started talking about why, technically speaking, we should be holding certain tassels of our prayer shawls during a blessing called the Baruch She'amar. This spiralled into a fascinating discussion regarding the origins of said blessing, certain Kabbalistic interpretations of it and the profound meaning behind all of this.

Not everyone was thrilled--one woman was getting glassy eyed. "I can't believe they're going on like this!" she told me.

"They're geeks," I said with a smile. "I'm a geek too--I'm loving this."

"I thought geeks like comic books and Star Trek," she said.

"We do," I assured her. "But the geek-impulse is far ranging. We can have deep discussions on anything: the way you hold the tassels of your prayer shawl during the Baruch She'amar, the sublties of Surak's teachings on Vulcan logic, health bars on World of Warcraft, or the misuse of the Force."

I paused and furrowed my brow. "What's unfair is that people assume that if you're talking about the Baruch She'amar--or anything else religious--it's automatically profound. But if you're talking about Batman or Star Trek, it's automatically not."

She grinned. "People have been talking about how to hold the tassels of your prayer shawl for thousands of years," she pointed out. "If people are still talking about Batman and Star Trek a couple of thousand years from now, they'll be profound too."

You know something? I think she's right. I have no doubt that Batman and all the other comic book heroes--not to mention Kirk & crew, the Jedi, Buffy and all the rest--hit us on a deep, archetypal level. The only reason that we question how much philosophical weight we should give them is because they don't have thousands of years of commentary behind them yet. People haven't been bending their brains toward them long enough, enriching them in the process.

But we may well get there--and then no one will have to be embarrassed about giving them serious philosophical consideration!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Clip of the Day ~ New baby for McCoy?

Ok, the Star Trek TOS episode called Friday's Child isn't my favorite. But it sure has some memorable parts...after all, this is the episode where McCoy snaps, "I'm a doctor, not an escalator!"

It also has this charming scene where Bones tries to teach Spock how to hold an infant--much to Spock's chagrin. The Vulcan passes the baby back to the doctor faster than you can say hot potato! And that's right before we find out that there might be some confusion as to the paternity of the child:




Edit: Oy! How did I not realize that the woman is Julie Newmar! How could I not have noticed? But it's her....ignore the hair, lol, and look at her and listen to that voice.

Now I know why I always enjoyed her character's interaction with McCoy...

Monday, August 18, 2008

The Monstrosity, Part Twenty

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Fan Fiction (Bonanza)
Rating: R

LINK TO PART ONE

~

Drew was polite enough to meet and greet my family—but he excused himself soon afterward, leaving Jack to play the host. But Jack soon bid us goodnight as well. That left the four of us alone in the library, although I knew that a footman was waiting up to show my father and my brothers to their rooms.

It was a tactful move on Jack and Drew’s part—they wanted to give me time alone with my family. But I was disappointed in Drew. I would have preferred that he remain with us…and I didn’t think it was tact alone that had induced him to turn in so soon after my family arrived.

No, I was pretty sure that his love for me wasn’t going to translate easily into a liking for my family. And that annoyed me. Even though I couldn’t take him for a lover, he still wanted to play an important part in my life. And I wanted that as well. Was it too much to ask that he tolerate my father and brothers?

But I wasn’t being fair…and I at least I had the grace to realize it. Neither trust nor liking came easily to Drew. And, to his credit, he had invited my family here because he knew that I needed their company tonight. I could hardly expect more than that from him.

So I settled down, cross-legged on the floor, near the fireplace without complaint. Joe sat next to me, stretching his legs out in front of him. My Pa took a chair nearby and Hoss to the larger chair opposite him.

For a long moment, no one said anything. Joe broke the silence.

“Well, it was an interesting night,” he said, flashing me a teasing smile.

I gave him a wry grin in return. “My behavior was—well, it was appalling,” I managed. “Thank you for doing what you could to salvage my reputation as a civilized man.”

“I think you’re being too hard on yourself, son,” Pa said with a surprising (and comforting) nonchalance in his voice. “It sounds like much ado about nothing—you may have overreacted to the girl’s forwardness, but it was just an accident that she fell backwards.”

“Besides,” Hoss piped up, “no one inside knew exactly what happened. And now Jack and Joe have everyone convinced that the whole thing was just a misunderstanding. And I reckon the chit don’t mind—that saves her reputation too.”

“Go tomorrow to the house and offer up your apologies to the hostess—and her daughter—for the ‘misunderstanding,’” Pa advised. “That ought to settle the whole affair.”

I cringed at that—truth be told, I never wanted to see the woman or her daughter again. But I managed a nod. “I will,” I promised.

We all fell silent after that. Once again, Joe was the first to speak up. He was determined to keep a conversation going.

“You know—this ‘Monstrosity’ ain’t so bad on the inside. I think I like it.”

I gave him another grin—a genuine grin this time. “That’s because your taste is deplorable.”

He chuckled at that. “Probably,” he owned. “But I do like living high…I think I’m going to enjoy my stay here tonight.”

Hoss snorted and glanced at me. “But I’ll bet you can’t wait to come home, older brother.”

I thought that over. “The house is a nightmare,” I owned, “but I don’t mind staying here. Drew’s become a good friend; I enjoy his company. In fact, I’m going to stay here from now on whenever business brings me to town. The International House will survive without my patronage.”

Hoss raised his eyebrows at me. “I never figured on seeing you and Drew Clayton become friends,” he commented. “But I have to admit that he’s not as much a bastard as I thought. He handled things well tonight.”

“I think he’s still a bastard,” Joe argued. “He just happens to hold Adam in high regard, that’s all.”

Pa rolled his eyes. “That’s enough, both of you. Drew was kind enough to invite us here tonight—I won’t have you two insulting our host.” He paused and turned to me. “Adam, I’m sure Drew will be glad for your company when you’re in town. But are sure you won’t be imposing on Jack?”

I nodded. “Jack’s the one who suggested that I treat his house as a second home. He wants another pair of eyes on Drew in case of an emergency—this place is difficult for a blind man to navigate.”

“I can imagine,” he agreed. “Well, then there’s no harm done.”

Joe, however, was frowning. “That means we’re going to have to invite them to visit at the Ponderosa, though, doesn’t it?”

I shrugged. “That would be the polite thing to do, yes.”

Hoss made a face. “Drew’s bad enough—but can you imagine having to put up with Jack’s comments about our home? He’ll find a hundred ways to be snide about how it ain’t fancy enough.”

“Yeah,” Joe added. “And how we’re not quality—as if he’s some blue-blood!”

Pa narrowed his eyes at the pair of them. “What did I just tell you two? You’ll keep civil tongues in your heads where our hosts are concerned.”

His voice brooked no argument. Hoss and Joe both looked chagrined as they stammered out their apologies.

Pa turned back to me. “Please invite both Jack and Drew to dinner with us—and to spend a couple of weeks with us, if they please.”

“I will,” I promised. “I’m sure they’ll come for dinner, but I doubt Jack will want to stay. Drew may or may not, depending on his business affairs here in town.”

That satisfied Pa, but Hoss and Joe still looked less than thrilled. I sighed to myself. It was going to be just as hard to get my brothers to accept Drew as it would to get Drew to accept them.

Hoss, meanwhile, was shaking his head at me. “Just what do you see in Drew Clayton?” he asked. “You two fight like hell over that mine you own together. You survive a stage wreck together, but then Drew goes and ruins some guy just to annoy you. And then you two get into a fistfight in our yard—never mind that he’s blind—and then you’re best friends afterward. What’s going on?”

I smiled at that summation of my friendship with Drew. But it took me a long time to answer.

“I admire Drew,” I said at length. “He can be petty and cruel—I’m not denying that—but when he decides that he loves someone there’s very little he won’t do on their behalf…and very little he won’t forgive them. And I admire his guts and determination when it comes to dealing with his blindness.”

“But there’s more,” Joe objected. “You’ve probably known all that for a while. Why are you such good friends now?”

I stared at him for a long moment, knowing that Pa and Hoss were also staring at me. “I can talk to him about Kane,” I admitted. “Drew—well, he’s had a number of difficulties in his own life. So I can tell him what happened between me and Kane without shocking him.”

There was an uneasy silence at that. This time Hoss broke it.

“Adam—are you saying that it’s easier for you to confide in someone like Drew than your own family?”

My eyes flashed at that. “Do you want me to confide in you, Hoss? Do you want to know the sorted details? Do you want to hear about the ways Kane tortured me or how he raped me?”

The silence that fell this time was nothing like the ones before. This wasn’t an awkward silence…it was a horrified silence. I knew then that Pa’s stricken face was going to haunt me forever. God damn it—why couldn’t I have kept my mouth shut? What sort of selfish bastard was I?

I sighed again. Well, now they knew. I’m pretty sure they had already guessed—but they’d never be able to console themselves again by hoping that Kane hadn’t been as twisted as they thought.

I broke the silence this time. “As I said, Drew’s had his own difficulties in the past. I’m not saying they were the same as mine—they weren’t—but he’s…he’s not easily shocked. So it’s easier to talk it out with him.”

Almost before I realized it, Joe’s arms were around me, nearly crushing me. “You talk it out with whoever you please, Adam,” he told me. “Just know that we can stand to hear it too…if you ever need us to.”

I managed to return his hug at that—I think I even rested my head on his shoulder. But when he finally released me, I still had to face Hoss and Pa.

They weren’t disgusted by me—they didn’t despise me for allowing such a thing to happen. I know there was no rational way for them to blame me for what Kane did, but I suppose some part of me had been afraid that they wouldn’t be able to help themselves. I was convinced that they would view me as less a man.

But that wasn’t the case. And yet I’m not sure if their reaction wasn’t worse. They were both angry on my behalf—but it was an impotent anger, for Kane was long dead. And Pa, especially…stricken is the right word. He looked ten years older now than he had a moment ago.

I swore under my breath. I should never have spoken up. There was no reason for him to ever know.

“Let’s get some rest,” I said. “Pa, I’m ok. Sooner or later I’ll be able to consign Kane to my past—and he won’t be haunting me. It’s just…it’s just going to take time.”

I was borrowing Drew’s words now. I didn’t believe that I’d ever get past Kane—but Drew did. And the best thing I could do for my family was to adopt his optimism.

Pa managed a nod, as did Hoss. But Joe—God bless Joe. He put his arms back around me and pressed his forehead to mine. “You will,” he agreed. “And if Drew can help you do that…well, I’ll love him just like a brother for the rest of my life. Even if I still want to throttle him.”

I laughed a little. “Thanks, Joe,” I said.

And with that I returned his embrace and held him for a long time.

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Now, if we didn't know better, doesn't this look like a perfect romantic moment between Mirror-Spock and Dr. McCoy? Sigh...

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Tara at Dusk, Part Seven

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Fan Fiction Crossover (Bonanza-Gone With The Wind)

Rating: PG

Link to Part One

~

Scarlett opened her eyes drowsily. The first hint of sunlight was peeking through the hotel room window.

She was nestled into the crook of Adam’s arm. She smiled to herself, enjoying the warmth of him as she listened to him breathe. His breaths were deep and even, indicating that he was still asleep.

They had just spent their first night together as man and wife. It was strange to think that she was Mrs. Cartwright now, not Mrs. Butler.

In the back of her mind, she had thought that Rhett would somehow stop the ceremony. She had been counting on it.

And yet…yet, she was almost relieved that he hadn’t. She still wanted Rhett, of course, but she didn’t want to lose Adam.

Scarlett was not by nature a reflective person, so it didn’t occur to her that Adam might have replaced Rhett in her heart. In her mind there was no question that she still loved Rhett. But she liked Adam and enjoyed his company—and she knew she’d be content to spend the rest of her life with him.

Of course, she had to make certain adjustments to keep the peace with Adam. Terms that she’d used unthinkingly since childhood to describe blacks—terms like ‘darky’—got him hopping mad. And then there was that incident with Prissy. It happened just the other day.

That careless ninny had accidentally torn Ella’s best dress—the one that Scarlett meant her to wear for the wedding. Scarlett screamed at Prissy and threatened to wear out a birch on her.

But she should have known better than to make that threat in front of Adam. Adam never raised an eyebrow when Prissy’s mother, Dilcey, threatened the fool—that was a parent’s prerogative. But he didn’t think Scarlett had any right to do so.

He dismissed Prissy and Ella and then yanked Scarlett back over his knee. That was bad enough—but afterwards he subjected her to an interminable lecture. Scarlett snapped back at him, but in the end he managed to make her feel almost guilty about her treatment of Prissy.

But at least Adam wasn’t like some other Yankees—the ones who talked about equal rights for blacks and then all but fled in terror every time they saw a black person.

And Prissy was grown now anyway. In fact, she was going to marry one of the hands at Tara. So even if Pork and Dilcey came out west with their other children, Prissy would remain behind.

“What are you thinking about, Katie-Scarlett?” Adam asked suddenly, breaking into her thoughts. “I felt you stiffen up all of the sudden.”

Scarlett smiled and glanced up at him. “I didn’t know that you were awake,” she whispered. “I was thinking about how angry you were when I threatened Prissy—and how happy I am that she’s not coming west with us.”

Adam chuckled at that. “And if she were going to come out west? What then?”

She sighed. “Then she’d remain as Ella’s nanny, I suppose. I couldn’t just dismiss her, Adam—she is family, after all. You understand that, don’t you?”

“I understand,” he answered, stroking her hair. “Your broad definition of ‘family’—and your determination to take care of every member—is one of the things I admire about you.”

“What about your family?” she asked, reaching up to stroke his cheek. “Do you suppose your Pa will accept me?”

He caught her hand and kissed it. “I know he will,” he assured her. “He’ll blame me for the divorce—not you. Besides, Hoss and Little Joe have been working on him. By the time we reach the Ponderosa he’ll be happy to welcome a daughter-in-law and two grandchildren.”

She smiled contentedly at that. “Thank God—I don’t mind you taking the blame. In fact, I’ll tell your Pa that you just swept me off my feet and stole my poor little country girl’s heart.”

Adam laughed. “And are you going to bat your eyelashes like that?”

She nodded. “Of course! I’m going to twist your Pa around my little finger. What do you think of that?’

He kissed the top of her head. “I think I’m going to enjoy watching you try.”

*

A week later Adam and Scarlett stood at Tara, watching the sunset. Adam didn’t realize it, but they were standing just where Scarlett had stood on that far-off evening before the barbecue at Twelve Oaks—back before the war began, back when she had waited for her father to come pounding home from the Wilkes’ on his long-legged hunter.

He put his arm around Scarlett in much the same way as her father had and drank in the sounds and scents of the land—and the warm glow on Scarlett’s face.

He was not only seeing Tara at dusk, he realized. He was glimpsing a part of his wife that no other place could bring out. Scarlett might grow to love the Ponderosa, but it was Tara that birthed and shaped her.

At length they returned to the house, walking back in silence. Adam kissed Scarlett and watched her settle down on the porch. She would be content out here for another hour, he reckoned, so he decided to go inside in search of Mammy.

Mammy had scarcely given him the time of day since he’d arrived. She made her disapproval of Scarlett’s new marriage evident every time she muttered to herself or ‘harrumphed’ in their presence. Scarlett, in turn, had acted as if Mammy didn’t exist.

He found the old woman sitting in the parlor with some darning. Adam drew up a chair next to her. “Do you mind if I sit with you?” he asked.

He got another ‘harrumph’ as a reply. That wasn’t precisely a refusal, so Adam sat down.

They sat in silence for a time. Mammy was the one to break it.

“What does Pork think he’s going to do with himself in Virginia City?” she asked. “He don’t know nothing except how to be a butler and a valet—and you don’t need either on your Ponderosa.”

Adam shrugged. “Scarlett and I will set up our own house—with a servant’s house, I suppose. She’ll want Pork to continue as a butler. And Dilcey is an experienced nurse and midwife—she can always find work. Besides, I think they feel that their children will have more opportunities out west than in Georgia.”

Mammy responded to that by muttering under her breath against Dilcey. Apparently the two women had never gotten on.

“Well, even if you have a butler,” she said at length, turning her wizened, piercing eyes on him, “it ain’t going to turn you into quality. And neither is your thousand square miles of ranch. And your marriage will still be nothing but adultery. No woman has any business remarrying while her husband is still alive.”

Adam raised his eyebrows at her. “And how did you know that the Ponderosa is a thousand square miles?”

To his surprise Mammy grinned. “Mister Rhett came here just before the wedding,” she said. “He told me that the Cartwrights have their own empire out in Nevada and that you’ll take good care of my lamb. ‘Don’t give Scarlett any grief, Mammy,’ he said. ‘Adam Cartwright is a decent man.’”

Despite his dislike of Butler, Adam managed a smile. “I will do my best to take care of her, Ma’am. And I think she and the children will be happy.”

Mammy sighed. “I think so too, now that I’ve met you. I suppose if Scarlett had to commit adultery, it might as well be with you. Will Dilcey be the mammy to your children?”

Adam shrugged. “I hadn’t thought about it—I’m not used to the whole idea of a mammy. But you’re more than welcome on the Ponderosa. I know how much it would mean to Scarlett if you came with us.”

But Mammy shook her head at that. “No, sir, I’m too old and too fat to be traipsing out to Nevada,” she said with a flat finality in her voice. “Now when are you going to tell my lamb that your Ponderosa isn’t a pitiful little ranch?”

Adam grinned. “I’m not going to tell her—not unless she asks me straight out. I’ll wait until she sees it for herself.”

Mammy chuckled and looked over Adam with something akin to approval. “Good. You know just how to handle my lamb.”

*

Scarlett heard Adam walk back onto the porch. She smiled up at him as he took a seat beside her on the steps, and even in the dim lamplight she could see him return the smile.

He put his arm around her as she nestled her head against his shoulder. “Will has done a fine job with Tara,” she said. “I know that I’m leaving her in good hands.”

Adam kissed the top of her head. “Can you be happy away from this raw, red earth?”

She nodded. “Yes—I spend most of my time away from her already. All these years I’ve been living in Atlanta…but Adam, I wish that Bonnie were coming with us.”

Adam said nothing to that—what could he say?—but he tightened his grip on her and stroked her hair. Scarlett closed her eyes, grateful for his warmth and nearness, and pushed the thought of her dead daughter to the back of her mind.

But close on the heels of Bonnie came thoughts of her mother and Melly and even Charlie and Frank. Scarlett had lost so much in her twenty-eight years—suddenly she realized how silly it was that she and Mammy were wasting their time quarreling.

Adam must have read her thoughts. “I think Mammy is ready to make amends,” he informed her. “We’ll get eaten alive if we stay out here—why don’t you go in and talk to her?”

Scarlett smiled slyly at him. “Is that a polite request—or a thinly disguised command?”

“The latter,” he said with a wink.

Scarlett laughed, but then her face turned serious. “She won’t be here by the time we come back to visit, will she?”

“Probably not,” he answered softly.

She closed her eyes for a moment, but at length she nodded. “I’ll go speak with her. I suppose I’ll never forgive myself otherwise. But she’ll always believe that we’re living in sin.”

“I know,” Adam said. “But after reminding me that I’ll never be ‘quality,’ she did say that if you had to commit adultery, it might as well be with me.”

Scarlett’s eyes danced with amusement. “Then you must have impressed her,” she told him. “That’s as near as she’ll ever come to saying that she likes you.”

Adam chuckled at that. Scarlett realized, for the first time, how much she enjoyed his warm, rich baritone. She threw her arms around him and kissed him impulsively.

He returned her kiss with a hot, almost rough passion. Then he held her to him when they finally broke apart.

Scarlett sighed again with a rare feeling of contentment. How good it felt to be in his arms! Adam wasn’t Rhett and the Ponderosa wouldn’t be Tara—but somehow she could bear the thought of leaving both Rhett and Tara behind.

She smiled to herself, and in the last few minutes of twilight the raw red earth and the sweet, mossy smell of Tara seemed to fade—replaced by the cool, dark blue of Lake Tahoe and the sharp scent of ponderosa pine.

~The End~

Tara at Dusk, Part Six

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Fan Fiction Crossover (Bonanza-Gone With The Wind)

Rating: PG

Link to Part One

~

Ashley frowned over the accounting books at the mill. He had never liked the lumber business—he wasn’t cut out for it. But the publishing venture that he, Adam and Scarlett had entered looked like it might succeed—even if Adam and Scarlett carried it out from Virginia City.

He fervently hoped for his book’s success, at any event. It would allow him to sell the mills and focus on writing.

The sound of someone entering the office pried his mind from the accounts. He glanced up and started at the sight of Rhett Butler.

“Good afternoon,” Rhett said with a slight bow.

“And to you,” Ashley returned, standing up so that he could offer Rhett his hand.

The two men shook hands and then seated themselves opposite each other. Ashley wasn’t entirely surprised to see Rhett. They had always understood one another and they had worked hand in glove in politics—first to put an end to the Klan in Georgia and then to bring the Democrats back to power.

They spent a few minutes exchanging pleasantries. Rhett asked after Ashley’s son as well as his sister India and Aunt Pittypat. Ashley, in turn, inquired after Rhett’s mother in Charleston. But then Rhett came to the point.

“Is this Adam Cartwright everything he seems?” he asked.

Ashley was surprised that Rhett would value his opinion on the matter, but he nodded. “He’s a good man and he loves Scarlett. Oh, he’s not starry-eyed,” he added. “He knows her faults. But he cares for her and the children. And he’ll take her away from here—away from the society that will never forgive her. She’ll have to leave Tara, of course, but Adam can afford to bring her back periodically.”

Rhett favored him with a wry smile. “Oh, he can certainly afford it. Do you know what a goldmine Scarlett has found for herself?”

Ashley grinned. “Yes—but Scarlett doesn’t. I only learned of the Ponderosa because Adam and I happen to have mutual friends in New York. Scarlett thinks of it as a pitifully small ranch.”

“Well, I almost admire Mr. Cartwright for not disillusioning her,” Rhett said with a dry laugh. “I suppose the best thing I can do for Scarlett is divorce her out of hand.”

“I think so,” Ashley agreed.

It cost him something to say as much, for Ashley knew that Melly had hoped and prayed that Scarlett and Rhett would settle their differences. Melly would have wanted them to try again.

But as far as he could see, they only brought out the worst in each other. He almost shuddered, remembering that one of their arguments had resulted in Scarlett’s terrible fall down a flight of stairs and subsequent miscarriage. It had been an accident, of course—Rhett had made some jeering comment and Scarlett had lunged at him and lost her balance. But such episodes were scarcely the basis of a sound marriage.

They spoke for a while longer on inconsequential matters, but at length Rhett rose to take his leave. He paused at the threshold, however.

“I’ll soon be a free man,” he reminded Ashley. “And I’d like to settle down in some comfort. Would you disapprove of your sister associating with a divorced gentleman?”

Ashley’s eyebrows shot up at that, but he recovered quickly enough. “India’s her own mistress,” he said evenly.

Rhett smiled at that and bowed. Then he departed, leaving Ashley with a vague, hollow feeling that was not unlike regret.

*

Adam took Scarlett as his wife less than a month later. Rhett Butler had done everything in his power—and that was considerable—to speed up the divorce.

They were married by a justice of the peace. Despite her indifference to the Church, Scarlett couldn’t bring herself to be married in a Protestant ceremony. Besides, Adam doubted that she had much use for God in any context.

Ashley was one witness and Suellen was the other. Yes, Suellen and her husband Will had made the trip to Atlanta in order to support Scarlett’s scandalous new marriage. Despite the sisters’ dislike of one another, they were still blood.

Wade also supported the marriage. Adam had discussed it with him at length and found the boy surprisingly agreeable to the notion.

He would do well enough on the Ponderosa, Adam decided. And Wade was hoping to get into West Point or Annapolis. He had the brains and determination for either. Adam thought that the Cartwrights stood a good chance of securing him the appointment.

Ella was also content with the situation. She had shyly confided to Adam that her mother was less frightening and overbearing when he was around.

But one person disapproved of the wedding and staunchly refused to come to Atlanta to celebrate it. Scarlett had made a special trip to Tara to beg Mammy to come, but Mammy held firm.

Mammy didn’t hold with divorce. She was as strict in her notions of propriety—and as strict a Catholic—as Scarlett’s mother, Ellen O’Hara, had been. She said straight out that she had no intention of watching Miss Ellen’s daughter disgrace herself in a ceremony that was no better than a celebration of adultery.

Adam had smiled grimly at that—Pa might well sympathize with Mammy. Oh, Pa was no Catholic, of course, but he didn’t hold with divorce either.

He could imagine the scene clearly when Scarlett described it to him, even though he had never met Mammy. The old woman had folded her arms across her chest and jutted out her chin while Scarlett ranted and raved—and now Scarlett was swearing that she would never speak to her again.

Adam knew that he would have to what he could to heal that breach. Scarlett would never forgive herself if the old woman died with the quarrel still between them.

*

India Wilkes set down her sewing and stared out the window. Aunt Pittypat’s house had been full of callers today—everyone wanted to discuss Scarlett’s shocking new marriage.

To think that she had divorced Captain Butler! And all to marry some Nevada rancher who had been born a Yankee.

India smiled thinly. The callers were almost disappointed that Mr. Cartwright was whisking Scarlett away to his ranch out west.

Scarlett had shocked and scandalized the town countless times. She had caused a rift between India and her brother Ashley that was only now beginning to heal. She was arguably even responsible for the deaths of Frank Kennedy and Tommy Wellburn.

Still, she made for excellent gossip.

Strangely enough, some of the hatred that India had always felt for Scarlett was abating now. Perhaps it was because Melly had set such a store by her. That hadn’t mattered while Melly was alive, but now that she had passed on it made all the difference.

For the first time, India could see Scarlett clearly. She was not a brass woman who had shamed her feminity and disgraced the old guard of the Confederacy, but a victim of that god-awful war, as they all were. She had done her best to survive and she had made sure that her family, her ex-slaves like Mammy and Pork, and her in-laws like Ashley and Melanie had all survived with her.

Some of the callers today felt that Mr. Cartwright was too good for Scarlett; for all that he was a Yankee. But India was secretly relieved that Scarlett had found a decent man—especially since he would take her far away.

Melanie would have been horrified by the divorce, India reflected. But she had loved Scarlett—and she would have liked and respected Adam Cartwright. In the end, she would have been happy for them both.

India picked up her sewing again, but was surprised by yet another knock on the door. Surely it was too late for more callers?

Uncle Peter answered the door and announced Captain Rhett Butler.

She rose to her feet and crossed over to him. “How good to see you, Captain Butler,” she said. “But I must inform you that Aunt Pittypat has retired for the evening. I fear she’s not available to any more callers.”

“I came to speak with you, Miss India” he informed her as he swept off his hat.

“With me?” she repeated blankly.

“Yes,” he answered smoothly. “Now that I’m, er, free of my entanglements, I was hoping you would give me the opportunity to get to know you better. May I come in?”

India stood rooted to the floor. She and Captain Butler had never treated each other with anything more than cold courtesy and grudging respect. And now he wanted to come courting?

The peculiar insight that allowed her to see Scarlett so clearly came to her rescue. Of course—he wanted a quiet life now. He wanted a life of companionship with a respectable woman of good breeding. The last thing he wanted was another wildcat like Scarlett.

She stepped aside and put on her most welcoming smile. “I’m honored, Captain Butler. Please come in.”

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Tara at Dusk, Part Five

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Fan Fiction Crossover (Bonanza-Gone With The Wind)

Rating: PG

Link to Part One

~

Adam followed Pork into the dining room. It was his first look inside the Peachtree Street mansion. As he expected, the interior was as ornate and gaudy as the exterior.

“Please sit down, Mr. Cartwright,” Scarlett invited. “Pork, you needn’t wait up.”

Pork nodded and tactfully withdrew as Adam helped himself to the chair closest to Scarlett. He gave her a measuring look as he seated himself.

“It’s a bit late for me to be paying a call to a married lady,” he commented.

“I’m not a lady,” she retorted. “If you’ve heard any gossip in town, then you must know that. I’m obstinate and selfish and greedy and I’ve been throwing myself at Ashley’s head for the past twelve years—even though I was married to three other men.”

Adam bit back a smile. “I have heard the gossip,” he admitted. “And I know from my own observations that you’re obstinate and greedy—but you’re not selfish. Ashley and Pork have told me how you’ve done everything in your power to take care of your family—not to mention the Wilkes and the Hamiltons.”

He watched Scarlett take a deep breath. “Well, let me tell you a few things that you haven't heard.”

And she did. Adam sat and listened as she told him about her first husband, Charles Hamilton, and how she had married him for spite. Then she told him about her time in Atlanta and her wild flight from town with Melly nearly dying along the way. And she explained how Rhett had abandoned them on the road to Tara.

Adam clenched his fists at that. He had heard about Rhett Butler from a number of sources in town.

He knew that Butler had shot and killed a young man in a duel in Charleston—after he had compromised the young man’s sister. He knew that Butler had made his fortune as a war profiteer. And now it turned out that he had abandoned Scarlett, Melly, Prissy and the children on a deadly, war torn road.

If the Yankees or the Confederates had come across Scarlett, the very least they would have done was commandeer her horse and wagon. Miss Melly would have died in that case. But Butler apparently thought it was more important to assuage his conscience by joining the dying Confederacy than to protect the women and children in his care.

A charming man, this Rhett Butler.

Scarlett continued her tale, telling him about the time she had shot and killed the Yankee deserter. She told him every awful thing she had done to keep food on the table at Tara—she even confessed that she had tried to become Rhett’s mistress.

She told him about Frank and how she had married him just for his money because she needed to pay the taxes on Tara. And then she told him how it was her fault that he had died. And then she told him about her marriage to Rhett and how she had embraced all his carpetbagger friends.

And finally she talked about Bonnie and how she had loved her far more than either of her other children.

“I—I know it’s wicked for a mother not to love her children,” she stammered as she poured herself another glass. “But I can’t help it. I wish Ella had died instead of Bonnie. Then Rhett would still be here.”

Adam sat in silence throughout her confessions. He wasn’t shocked or horrified. In fact, only one thing worried him: her drinking. It wasn’t going to be easy to curtail her brandy habit.

“What—what are you thinking?” Scarlett managed.

He didn’t answer that. “Why did you tell me all this?” he asked instead.

She took another deep breath. “So that you’ll know the truth about me. I don’t want you to be disappointed later.”

She paused. “After Rhett left I went back to Tara,” she continued at length. “I needed time to lick my wounds and plan how to get him back. But now—well, I don’t think I can get him back. He—he doesn’t care about anything anymore. It’s as if he buried his heart with Bonnie.”

She paused. “Once he hears about you, he’ll know why I want the divorce. If—if he still cares for me, he’ll come back for me then. And if not—”

“And if not you might as well marry me,” Adam supplied. “Is that it?”

She nodded and reached for her glass again. But Adam grabbed it first and moved it out of her reach.

She opened her mouth, shocked at his action. “If you marry me, Mr. Cartwright,” she said, narrowing her green eyes at him, “you’ll have to accept the fact that I like my brandy.”

“And if you marry me, Scarlett,” he returned evenly, “you’ll have to obey me. I won’t put my foot down often, but I’m not about to let you drink yourself blind.”

There was a long, tense moment of silence. Scarlett glowered at him, but Adam met her stare and held it.

In the end she was the one to back down. “That would have been my last glass,” she said with a shrug. “Do you still want to marry me, or have I frightened you off?”

He grinned at that. “It would take more than what you’ve told me tonight to scare me off,” he informed her.

She returned his smile. “Aren’t you scared of anything? I’ve done murder, Mr. Cartwright,” she reminded him.

He shook his head at her. “Killing that Yankee deserter was self-defense, Scarlett, not murder.”

“What a tactful way to describe such a crude incident,” said an unfamiliar, mocking voice.

Adam saw Scarlett go white as he stood up and turned to face the stranger. An elegantly dressed, powerfully built man stood at the entrance to the dining room.

Adam could just make out his features in the lamplight. He was a swarthy man, with hair as black as his own and a moustache to match.

“Don’t just sit there, Scarlett,” the man said. “Won’t you introduce me to your fiancé?”

“Rhett! When did you get home? And how—how much did you hear?” Scarlett demanded.

Rhett Butler laughed. “Enough to ascertain that you’ll only take Mr. Cartwright here if I won’t have you. Tell me Scarlett, do you never tire of marrying men you don’t love?”

Scarlett collected herself. “Rhett, this is Adam Cartwright,” she said with cold dignity. “Adam, this is my husband.”

“So I gathered,” Adam said dryly. And with that, he forced himself to offer Rhett his hand.

*

Scarlett stared at the two men in front of her. Each was giving the other a cold, measuring look. Adam had offered his hand to Rhett, but Rhett had yet to accept it.

In fact, Rhett raised his eyebrows at Adam and favored him with a sardonic smile. “According to the conventions, I believe I should be challenging you to a duel, not shaking your hand.”

Adam let his hand drop at that. “If you think that I’ve compromised your wife, go right ahead,” he said dryly. “But I’m not as green as that boy you killed in Charleston.”

Rhett threw back his head and laughed at that, but Scarlett cringed. She wondered how Adam had found out about that incident.

It happened a long time ago. Back before the war, Rhett had compromised a young woman in Charleston by taking her out for a buggy ride without a chaperone. He kept her out nearly all night, claiming that the buggy smashed, the horse bolted and the pair got lost in the woods. And then he refused to marry her!

The girl’s brother challenged him to a duel and Rhett accepted, saying that he’d rather be shot than marry a stupid fool. But there was little chance of Rhett taking a bullet. He was quite handy with a gun—he shot and killed the boy.

Scarlett had admired Rhett for refusing to marry the ‘stupid’ fool. But now she was having second thoughts.

What would Adam have done in Rhett’s shoes? Why, Adam was just as good a shot as Rhett—if not better.

But Adam wouldn’t have compromised the girl in the first place. And if he had—why, he would have married her. Or he would have found another way to extricate himself. But he would never have fought the duel—he would never have risked killing a young man who was only trying to defend his sister’s honor.

Scarlett caught her breath. She rarely set her mind to moral puzzles and when she did she quickly grew uncomfortable. She wanted to admire Rhett, not Adam. Adam was just a means of regaining Rhett’s heart—and barring that he was a failsafe. It would be better to marry Adam, after all, than to live out her life as an abandoned wife.

She shook her head and forced herself to dismiss her thoughts about the duel. It was all such a long time ago—there was no point in troubling over it now.

“What brings you to Atlanta?” Rhett inquired as he lit a cigar. “Surely not just the Freedmen’s Bureau. Were you trying to escape the Ponderosa and the demands of such an empire?”

Scarlett frowned at that. Empire? What was Rhett talking about? Adam’s family were small time ranchers in Nevada—or so she had assumed.

Perhaps Rhett was being sarcastic. It would be just like him…

And why would Rhett know the first thing about Adam? Unless India Wilkes or some gossipy matron had written to his mother in Charleston—that’s probably how it happened.

It was most likely India Wilkes. She was Ashley’s sister and so she knew all about Adam. That dried up old maid had always hated Scarlett—and no doubt that had driven her to make certain that Rhett found out.

And Rhett, in turn, proved jealous enough to investigate Mr. Cartwright. Scarlett’s mood brightened at once.

Adam had been narrowing his eyes at Rhett, but he grinned suddenly—almost despite himself, Scarlett thought. “No, I had no desire to escape the Ponderosa,” he explained. “Only to leave it temporarily. But I mean to return.”

“With my wife in tow?” Rhett inquired politely, as if they were discussing the weather.

“If she agrees, yes,” Adam returned. “I mean to take Scarlett and the children.”

With that Adam turned back to Scarlett and leaned over to kiss her cheek. “I’ll call on you in the morning,” he told her.

Their eyes met for a moment. Scarlett could read his unspoken question: Are you frightened of Rhett? Should I stay?

She shook her head ever so slightly. Adam nodded at that, picked up his hat and jacket and left the house.

Scarlett turned to Rhett as she heard the front door close. She opened her mouth to speak, but found herself at a loss for words.

That was strange. She never felt uncomfortable speaking to Adam. But Adam’s eyes never had that cold, distant look that Rhett’s had taken on.

He turned those eyes on Scarlett, giving her a hard, calculating look. But to Scarlett’s surprise, that look was tinged with respect.

“I must congratulate you, Scarlett,” he said as he took a puff of his cigar. “I never guessed that you’d have so much sense—I thought you’d always prefer glister over gold. Now let’s see if we can discuss our marriage like two reasonable adults.”

Scarlett nodded wordlessly. She still couldn’t read Rhett, she realized. She had no idea if he meant to give them another chance together—or to offer her a divorce.

*

Scarlett received Adam in her parlor the next morning. Rhett was not at home—in fact, she suspected that he had spent the night elsewhere.

She would have preferred to have met Adam at the mercantile. Rhett seldom set foot in her shop, so nothing there reminded her of him. But today was Sunday and so her shop was closed.

And why shouldn’t she receive Adam in her home again? It was useless to pretend that he was just an employee.

She smiled at him when Pork announced him and stood up so that he could greet her properly. He only kissed her cheek, however—and to her surprise she was disappointed.

“Is that any way to greet the woman you’re going to marry?” she inquired as soon as Pork left the room.

Adam raised his eyebrows at that. “You agreed to a divorce?”

Scarlett nodded and gave him a look that was calculated to enchant him.

He narrowed his eyes at her. “Scarlett, was this an amicable agreement?”

She swallowed hard at that. At length she shook her head. She would have lied, but she was afraid that Adam would see through her.

“It was Rhett’s choice, not mine,” she confessed. Her eyes flashed as she remembered their conversation from the night before. “But I—I can’t think about that now. I’ll fall apart if I think about it. And I don’t mean to carry on like an embittered wife.”

Adam cocked his head at her. “And so you’re going to marry me to prove that you’re not devastated?”

Scarlett peered intently at him. There was no anger in his voice—and no shock or jealousy either. In fact, he seemed almost amused by the situation.

“Yes,” she answered.

“You married Charles Hamilton for a similar reason,” he pointed out.

Scarlett felt her eyes widen at that. “I did,” she admitted. “But—but somehow this feels different.”

Adam sighed. “Well, at least you have your eyes open this time,” he agreed.

She stared at him again. “Why are you marrying me?” she demanded suddenly. “It isn’t—it isn’t because you want the authority to spank me, is it?”

Adam laughed. “No—but I mean to take advantage of it,” he assured her.

Scarlett couldn’t help but smile back at that. She knew that Adam would never really harm her—but there was something exciting about the thought of him taking her in hand again.

“Is it because you like my children?” she asked. “Is that the reason?”

“Well, I am attached to them,” he admitted. “But that’s not why I’m marrying you.”

“Are you in love with me?” she persisted, stepping closer to him.

He stared down at her for a long moment. “Yes,” he said at length. “But it’s not the sort of love you’re thinking of, Katie-Scarlett.”

She smiled up at him. “What do you mean by that?”

He chucked her chin. “I mean that you don’t know the difference between love and obsession.”

Scarlett laughed at that and slanted her eyes at him. “I suppose you think you can teach me? You’re an arrogant devil, Adam Cartwright.”

“I suppose we’re going to find out,” he retorted, winking at her. Then his voice grew serious. “Listen to me, Scarlett. Are you sure you can stand the censure of a divorce?”

She frowned as she considered that. She’d never known a divorced woman, but she’d heard of some. When a woman divorced and remarried, respectable people considered it a scandal.

And Scarlett was a Catholic. There’d be no wedding Mass when she married Adam, for the Church didn’t permit remarriage after divorce.

But, in truth, Scarlett cared very little about the Church. Nor did she care much about the respectable citizens of Atlanta. They had always gossiped about her before—why should that change now?

“My mother would turn in her grave if she knew,” Scarlett said at last. “And I can’t imagine what Mammy’s going to say when she finds out…but never mind that.”

She placed her hand on his arm as she remembered something much more important. “Adam, Rhett’s going to be difficult about the settlement. He keeps pretending that you have an empire out west. He says that you should be able to provide for me and my children.”

“I think I can manage that,” Adam said dryly.

But Scarlett shook her head. “You don’t understand. If we leave for Nevada—well, I’ll have to sign Tara over to Will and Suellen. Oh, but we must come back periodically, Adam. I don’t care how long the trip is. I can’t be away from Tara forever.”

“We’ll come back,” he promised.

She smiled. He would keep his word, she knew that. So she set Tara aside and went back to finances. “Of course, I’ll have the money from the sale of my store—”

Adam laughed. “Scarlett, I’m not a pauper. The Ponderosa does well enough—I’m sure we’ll manage.”

Scarlett wanted to frown at that, but she kept her smile pasted on. Adam was proud of his family’s pitiful little ranch, she reminded herself. She would have to pretend to be impressed when she finally saw it.

Nonetheless, he had good business sense. If he would let her guide him, perhaps she could make the Ponderosa truly profitable.

“Would you—would you object to me taking a slight hand in the family business?” she asked.

“No,” he answered. “But it’s an honest business, Scarlett.”

Her mouth popped open at that. “What do you mean to insinuate?”

“I don’t mean to insinuate anything,” he assured her. “But I’m quite familiar with your ethics and I’m not going to allow you to cheat anyone.”

“I never cheated anyone,” Scarlett snapped. “Well—excepting some of the low-grade lumber I sold when I owned the mills. Some might consider that cheating.”

“Let’s not forget that you used convict labor for those mills,” he reminded her. “I’m sure those men were cheated out of any decent care.”

“And I suppose you would have objected to the convicts?” she demanded.

“I wouldn’t have let you use forced labor,” Adam confirmed.

She narrowed her eyes at him. He met her stare—in fact, there was a challenging gleam in his own eyes.

She smiled again—a genuine smile this time. She’d never be able to control Adam the way she had controlled Charles and Frank. She’d never induce him to worship her or beg for her favors. Nor would she be able to frighten him with her temper.

And he’d never indulge her shrewd but unethical business deals the way Rhett had.
But there was something to be said for a man who wouldn’t indulge you or let you order him about.

“I won’t cheat anyone,” she promised.

Adam grinned. “In that case, I’m sure we’ll find plenty of Ponderosa business to keep you occupied. Now I’d better take my leave of you,” he said as he kissed her on the cheek again.

She frowned at him. “Don’t you mean to kiss me properly?”

He laughed at that. “I will,” he told her. “Just as soon as your divorce is final.”

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Tara at Dusk, Part Four

by J. Rosemary Moss

Genre: Fan Fiction Crossover (Bonanza-Gone With The Wind)

Rating: PG

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Hoss swallowed. “Do you want to tell him?” he asked, staring at the front door.

“Oh yes,” Joe answered, rubbing his hands together.

“Pa’s going to be hopping mad,” Hoss warned him.

Little Joe nodded. “He sure is. But he’ll be angry with older brother—not with us. I only wish older brother were here so that he could witness Pa’s reaction.”

“He doesn’t have to be here,” Hoss said with a sigh. “I reckon he’ll hear Pa explode all the way down in Atlanta.”

Joe bit back a grin. “Probably,” he owned.

“Do you suppose we can calm him down afterwards?” Hoss persisted.

Joe gave the matter some thought. “I think so,” he said at length. “If Adam marries a divorcée the world won’t come to an end. But it might take Pa some time to see that.”

Hoss sighed again. “I reckon that’s why Adam sent you that letter. He wants us to soften Pa up for him.”

“Yup,” Joe agreed. “And that’s what I’ll do—but I think I’ll let Pa have his explosion first.” He paused to hit his brother on the chest. “Wish me luck!”

“Good luck, short shanks,” Hoss said solemnly.

And with that Joe squared his shoulders and made his way inside.

*

As Joe expected, Pa was sitting behind his desk, frowning at a mound of paperwork. Joe shook his head. Pa had been working too hard of late, but there was no talking to the man.

He could read his Pa’s thoughts. He was wishing that Adam was here instead of wasting his time in Atlanta. Pa would feel better if his oldest son was at hand to peruse their investments—especially in the wake of the stock market crash.

Of course, Adam was making himself useful in Atlanta. He’d been looking into new investments that weren’t likely to be affected by the crash. But Pa still wanted him home.

Oh, just wait till Pa heard what was keeping older brother in dear old Georgia!

“Hi Pa!” Joe called out as he removed his hat, coat and gun belt. “We got all the supplies from town—and all the mail.”

“Anything from Adam?” Pa demanded.

“As a matter of fact, yes,” Joe answered. “A nice long letter. He expects to be coming home soon. But Pa—”

“Thank the Lord for that!” Pa said. “It’s high time he stopped worrying about what was going on in the South and started thinking about what’s going on here. When does he expect to be home?”

“He doesn’t know, exactly,” Joe said with a shrug. “He’s, uh—well, he’s waiting on someone.”

Pa furrowed his brow. “Waiting on someone? Who?”

Joe grinned. “A girl, of course. Well, not exactly a girl,” he corrected. “I should say a lady.”

“A lady?” Pa repeated blankly. “Do you mean to tell me—is your brother engaged?”

“No, but he has hopes,” Joe explained. “But Pa—”

“Why, that’s wonderful!” Pa exclaimed, jumping up from his chair. “What is she like? How did he meet her?”

Joe cleared his throat. “Well, apparently her little girl was lost. Adam found her and brought her home. But Pa—”

“Little girl?” Pa repeated. “The lady must be a widow.”

Joe nodded. “Yeah, she’s a widow, all right. In fact, she’s been widowed twice. She has a son from her first husband and a daughter from her second one. But Pa—”

“Wonderful!” Pa said again. “Oh, I’m sorry that she lost two husbands—I imagine the war had something to do with that—but I’ll be gaining two grandchildren!”

Joe sighed. “Only if this works out, Pa.”

“Why shouldn’t it work out?” Pa asked as he picked out a pipe from his collection and broke open a new tin of tobacco. “Adam has everything to offer a lady.”

Joe took a deep breath. “But Pa, she’s married,” he said in a rush.

Ben looked up from his pipe. “Married? I thought you just said that she was widowed—twice!”

“She was,” Joe agreed. “But then she got married again. And husband number three is still alive.”

Pa’s face transformed before Joe’s eyes. His expression went from sheer delight to thunderous rage.

“Do you mean to tell me that your older brother is courting a married lady?” he demanded.

Joe nodded, making sure that he kept a straight face. “But don’t worry, Pa,” he said reassuringly. “Adam thinks that Mrs. Butler will obtain a divorce.”

“Oh he does, does he?” Pa asked, tossing his pipe down on the desk. “Does he also think that I raised my sons to court married women? Or to encourage a woman to disgrace herself with a divorce?”

Joe managed another shrug. “I’m not sure, Pa. He doesn’t say.”

Pa glared at him and stalked over to the door. Joe watched him put on his hat, coat and gun belt.

“Where are you going?” he risked asking.

“To town,” Pa answered. “I mean to wire that older brother of yours and bring him to his senses!”

And with that Pa marched out the door, slamming it behind him.

Little Joe let out a low whistle as he shook his head. Well, that went about as well as he expected. Hopefully by the time he got to town, Pa would calm down. He’d probably think better of sending the wire. He’d at least decide to come home and read Adam’s letter first.

That’s when he and Hoss would get to work on him. Between the two of them, they could make Pa see reason.

Still, it was nice to see older brother as the object of Pa’s rage. “Better you than me, Adam,” Joe said with a smile.

*

Pork entered the dining room slowly. Scarlett was seated at the head of the table with nothing but a single glass and the decanter of brandy in front of her.

She looked up at him as he entered. Her eyes were sparkling, as if daring him to reprimand her. She wasn’t drunk, but he knew from experience that she’d had just enough liquor to make her impossible to reason with.

“Why don’t you go on up to bed Miss Scarlett?” he asked.

She shook her head. “No, I’m not tired. Pork, do you know where Adam Cartwright lives?”

“Yes, I do,” he answered, narrowing his eyes at her.

“Go get the carriage then and—and bring me to him.”

He raised his eyebrows at that. “Miss Scarlett—you can’t go to his place! You know what folks would think—even if it were daylight. But it’s almost eleven o’clock at night!”

“Fiddle-dee-dee,” she responded as she poured herself another glass. “Do you think I care about one more scandal? Let the neighbors talk. They’ll be gossiping soon enough, regardless, if I end up divorced.”

“Miss Scarlett, let me help you upstairs,” Pork pleaded.

“Mother of God, I’m not drunk and I’m not a child! Now kindly bring the carriage around or I’ll find his home myself.”

Pork sighed. Scarlett was right—Atlanta folks would talk about her now no matter what she did.

Pork knew that Ashley Wilkes was hoping Scarlett would accept Adam’s suit. Ashley had liked Adam straight off and thought he’d be good for her. For the first time, Pork found himself agreeing with Ashley.

Maybe Scarlett should get her divorce after all and let Adam Cartwright take her and the children away from here. Maybe a fresh start out west would be the best thing for all of them.

Of course, that would put Pork in a bind. He was as much an O’Hara as Scarlett and he had no mind to seek employment with a new family. So either he would have to return to Tara and put up with Suellen or he and his own family would have to make the long journey to Nevada.

He would talk it over with his wife Dilcey, of course. But of those two options, Nevada looked more promising.

Besides, he had his own children to think of. The world would always be difficult for them, because of their race. But looking down the long years ahead, Pork thought that perhaps the West would offer them more opportunities than the South.

“You stay right where you are, Miss Scarlett,” he said at length. “I’ll bring him here.”

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